painful to us. We suffer only in proportion
as the vice which is natural to us resists supernatural grace. Our heart
feels torn asunder between these opposed efforts. But it would be very
unfair to impute this violence to God, who is drawing us on, instead of to
the world, which is holding us back. It is as a child, which a mother tears
from the arms of robbers, in the pain it suffers, should love the loving and
legitimate violence of her who procures its liberty, and detest only the
impetuous and tyrannical violence of those who detain it unjustly. The most
cruel war which God can make with men in this life is to leave them without
that war which He came to bring. "I came to send war," He says, "and to
teach them of this war. I came to bring fire and the sword." Before Him the
world lived in this false peace.
499. External works.--There nothing so perilous as what pleases God and man.
For those states, which please God and man, have one property which pleases
God, and another which pleases men; as the greatness of Saint Teresa. What
pleased God was her deep humility in the midst of her revelations; what
pleased men was her light. And so we torment ourselves to imitate her
discourses, thinking to imitate her conditions, and not so much to love what
God loves and to put ourselves in the state which God loves.
It is better not to fast, and be thereby humbled, than to fast and be
self-satisfied therewith. The Pharisee and the Publican.
What use will memory be to me, if it can alike hurt and help me, and all
depends upon the blessing of God, who gives only to things done for Him,
according to His rules and in His ways, the manner being thus as important
as the thing an